Beginning this was my third attempt at keeping a blog, the previous ones I’ve since unpublished. Though, I’m not too sure why, because I just had a cheeky read over them and they aren’t that dissimilar to this current one. They are heavily related to whatever film/ animation projects I was working on at the time and followed a similar format in sharing progress images/ behind the scenes style goodies. I think it was probably more to do with the stage of my life when I was writing them, rather than the actual content: I was struggling severely with my mental health at the time and I think when I started this blog, I had got to a point where I was well enough to (and understandably so) want to disassociate with that version of me. Over ten years have passed now and I’m able to look back on that time in a more reasonable light, but I can empathise with my past self for wanting to put those memories completely behind me. Perhaps I’ll republish them at some point…
Anyway, I have digressed as per. In essence, the reason I started the blog has stayed the same throughout, which was to share my creative works and analyse my practise. As well as being a creative record to look back on over the years and see what I’ve accomplished and see how I’ve grown and developed as an artist/ filmmaker and as a person (spoiler alert: a lot). From time to time, especially at moments when I’m finding it hard to appreciate how far I’ve come over the years, I do look back on my older work as a reminder of all the creative stuff I’ve done. Sometimes I get in a slump and think ‘I’m not very ‘good’’, or not very creative. Which is a load of rubbish! So this blog has been a huge help in that way.
I rarely advertise this blog on what little social media I do use, because I like the idea of it being just for me. I think if I publicised it in a wider way, then I might be more conscious of my writing style or things I post about/ amount I post. I don’t mind that it’s public, in fact, it would be nice if someone told me that they’re a reader and find what I put out here interesting or educational (or even somewhat entertaining), but I think if it was more outwardly publicly facing, such as my Instagram, I’d probably not be so much ‘me’ on here and tie myself up in knots over the content of the blog. And I don’t really want this tainted in that same way. I like it as an outlet where I can be my authentic self without worrying what others might think.
Due to the amount of posts there is and the length of some of said posts (most easily go over the 1,000 word count without even trying), this blog is clearly something I love doing. It’s an enjoyable way of acknowledging the closure of whatever project I’m working on, as well as giving me a space to evaluate my work and through that, learn and grow as an artist. As I go into a lot of detail in most of the posts, it’s also super useful to look back on when trying to emulate a similar technique or process and see how I did something and what worked/ what didn’t.
Not really sure where I’m going with this post if I’m honest! I just sort of wanted to celebrate the milestone of ten years and get a bit gooey over how much I enjoy this thing! But yeah, maybe I’ll leave it at that. Also if you are a regular reader here, then a massive thank you for reading and taking an interest- it is greatly appreciated <3
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